A Recluse

Why I chose to sit and stay,

 than to move out and play

I never knew,rather I never believed

in this world,its structure and society

in the boundaries of qualification

 norms of appreciation
in the rules of competency

and the modes of decency

Ephemeral is what describes them the best

They love to clap and criticize 

than to soak and empathize

They choose to gossip and satirize

than to act and pulverize.

For views are easier to manipulate

as we change the frames in front

from fire to ice; like the rolling dice

like tweaking the hands of a clock

like the mannequin in a cloak.

I live in a world so dark and cold

that to survive and prosper,

you need to be brazen and bold

but such a mean soul am not I 

to sell my soul and cry

I would choose to starve and die.

To My Wholes

Every morning I had to see ur ugly face
As mirrors seldom lie
but you won't in any case

I never felt the urge to shout
as you are always my voice
So many nites we ended up counting the stars
as you left me with no choice

I never had to seek any expert advice
As you are there to offer free service
Every time I failed with a poker face
You stood ahead with a stubborn grace

You kicked my back with those nasty blows
Whenever I fought with you on petty cause
Your voice was a test of patience
but my world crumbled with your silence

Your smile reminded me of that ugly horse
who ran like a hare on the race-course
but each time that was not on your face
How did I feel you can never guess

As we traveled our lives
from those sloppy streets to big by-lanes
years have flown without your presence

The summers were scorching
The springs were singing
But the pain and the pleasure
were not worth dying for

Many moments worth cherishing
went like a silent stream
in search of the sea where
together we would ever be.

Those moments had a life of their own
Some died, some still to born
but the memories make me stubborn

I look upto to the night sky
Through the corner of my blinking eyes
The rains have cleared the dusty air
Now its the dance of the dark
with a chilling breeze

But the dawn would soon arrive
with a renewed hope to survive
Making me realize

The lights were there forever
but you made darkness more dearer
With you the fear was nowhere
Today I slip back to the unwanted square
and just wish "'you were there"

In memory of those worthless souls who
make my life all so worthwhile.